Having an honest relationship with God

I have been reading Job this week and am amazed at how he spoke to God. It brought to mind how David spoke to God in the Psalms as well. These two men spoke openly and honestly with God. If they were angry, they said so. If they were scared, they cried to God for help. Even when they felt God had abandoned them, they continued to reach out to him for guidance. As I continue reading Job I am reminded over and over again how God responds to our prayers no matter the mood or the petition. How often had I felt I could not go to God when angry or hurt. Who was I to complain to the Almighty! Would he respond in anger? Would He be disappointed in my lack of faith? No. Over and over through scriptures I am shown how God wants me to reach out to him as a daughter reaches out to her father. Not having a healthy father image growing up, this was difficult for me to comprehend. Only through a church family who showed me the love of our heavenly father through their unconditional love for me, did I begin to see who God, my heavenly father really was. That I could trust him even in the worst of situations. The trauma of my childhood has shown me that bad things do happen to us, even as God's children. However, through the healing process I have begun to understand that no matter the situation, God is with me. I am free to get angry with him and pout, I am free to question his will. And I am free to cry out in desperation for His help and guidance. This coming year of 2009, instead of making resolutions; I have decided to put my energy into practicing being in Gods presence no matter what I am doing or where I am emotionally. As I continue to read the great prophets I will remember how God responed with love and discipline to those who depended on him. I want this kind of relationship with God. I want to continue to learn from those in the scriptures who have traveled before me. I look forward to the journey with my Heavenly Father. What I hope to gain is what Job said in chapter 42 vs 5. My ears had heard of you, but now my eyes have seen you." (NIV) Yes, I believe I too, will see God when I am willing to look through spiritual eyes. I believe this is God's will.